In my head there are certain things that happen naturally, for instance breathing is a natural occurrence but if you catch yourself breathing in and out, it’s weird. You’re surprised, “wow. I’m breathing. In. Out. In. Out. Stop thinking about it!!” Haha.. I’m thinking about it now…
So that’s normal. Like chewing and swallowing, that’s normal too. But there’s one thing that happens in my brain, that may not be normal to everyone. I don’t know how long I’ve had this because I’ve only recently started paying attention to it. It is my natural ability to compete with anything and anyone at any possible time. I’ll give you an example to clarify my situation. Let’s say I’m in public and walking up the stairs, and by chance there’s someone who takes the first step up with me at exactly the same time. There’s a trigger in my brain I don’t know what it is or where it comes from but it puts me in competition mode and I need to reach the top of the stairs before this person or I am not a winner. Duh. 😉 So I start rushing up the stairs like a crazy person (this usually happens when I’m on my own by the way, sometimes it happens with people I know) and anyone that I pass on the way I have automatically beaten as well. Then I leave the stairs feeling like a champ because the best thing about these types of competitions is that I always seem to win. There was one time though I think I met a kindred spirit because I could have sworn this guy was racing me a little too. That was a fun trip up the stairs.
I had one of these races once with my sister present and when I reached the top of the stairs (first place of course) I had my victory smile/smirk/look on and she looks at me and goes “Did you win?”
Yes, yes I did. I always win. Because I am a winner! *And the crowd goes wild!*
The thing about these competitions and why I feel like I need to win them is because there are no do overs. You will never be able to recreate any of these competitions, so you HAVE to win! I have to win. Otherwise I am a loser, and I am not a loser. No way Jose. HAHAHAHAHA… I can see how I am coming across now. I’m not crazy, just a little competitive. And who doesn’t like a little competition sometimes?
I think this song makes sense here: